So darkness I became,
Photos Mad Hatters Tea Party, Phoenix Park.
YOU MUST BE MAD
OTHERWISE YOU WOULD NOT HAVE COME HERE
Cause your smile is beautiful and it makes me happy.
Kate Nash seems to know a lot about love.
I remember once when I saw her live at a festival and ran away from my current boyfriend, planned to climb backstage to marry her.
Vodka does stupid things to you but sure as hell make you feel alive.
Kate Nash - Dickhead
Kate Nash - Kiss that grrrrl
Kate Nash - Foundations
Kate Nash - We get on
Kate Nash - Birds
Let's just say I'm fairly ambivalent at the moment.
My fingertips are holding onto the
cracks in our fondations,
and I know that I should let go,
but I can't
Actually I think I might keep the bottle to myself.
Maybe I'm just in this experiment to see how much I can take. It feels like it at least.
Or maybe life is once again just a bumpy road.
But then I read all 3 Hunger Game books that were amazing and you realise it could have been a LOT LOT worse.
Except Katniss is always surrounded by love.
I don't even knwo what I'm talking about.
Went to the gym and paniced about the fact about the weight I've gained. It's probably more in my head than it really is but it would be so much easier for me to go there if I didn't feel absolutely nautious all the time. ALL THE TIME for the past weeks.
I made sure I ate every day this week at work and I still feel like fainting when I stand up and when I went there I was so weak. I was at the gym 3 weeks ago and it was fine I don't know what happened today because it was ridiculous so weak I am today.
It's almost a year ago since I left China. A year. Since I have seen anyone from the school.
Strange. I have loads of pictures I want to upload but Mobile Broadband doesn't really work that well.
Ben Howard 02/03 2012 The Academy
Dear Skyping Dublin
Good news, my sister is planning to visit me in Dublin on her Easter-break and my dad wants to visit as well. Yeaaaah!
And I thought my sister looked so ghetto so I asked her to pose for me and now she will probably kill me.
Dear Dublin Tuesday
Thought taking up the blog could be a good thing or a bad thing or a decent thing to do so I will stop driving everyone around me fucking crazy.
Sitting in bed, giving candy-buying instructions to Dejana who's coming for a visit Thursday fresh from Sweden! YAY! I have great plans for the weekend for us 3. It involves alcohol and Burlesque dancers.
Thursday I also start my first real day at XBOX, where I have to sit by myself and take calls. Scary stuff. No more training.
Evelina is with her boyfriend Dave uuuuuuuuuuuuuh, I have chinese food in the oven. Return of the Jedi on paus and trying to tie myself to the bed not to call or text because I don't want to ruin it for myself. Ah silly out-of-control emotions what are they good for anyway?
I went to buy food in Iceland. Not Iceland Iceland but the store and me and Martina found these delicious meals:
Ham Sandwich @ The Academy
Dear depressing Dublin,
This sums up my state of mind pretty good I think.
It's been a few strange weeks.
Very strange and sad.
But I got a new job.
Which I am very happy about.
I'm gonna buy some more happiness for the money I'll earn.
Evelina doesn't seem to belive that I'm cursed.
But I had a realisation this morning.
And I am.
Which I am very happy about.
I'm gonna buy some more happiness for the money I'll earn.
Evelina doesn't seem to belive that I'm cursed.
But I had a realisation this morning.
And I am.
Dear Dublin,
Haven't updated in a while because I was more or less working day and night during the entire December, but my days as Santas elf are over, I enjoyed it though. Gave me a slight case of the baby fever, kids are lovely - most of them. Got a whole week off work. Have spended 2 days doing absolutely fuck all and I'm planning to do so for the next 5 days as well. Well maybe put up the posters the lovely John gave us! That's about it.
Also.. to exchange my entire wardrobe. Sick of the clothes I have so I might just bring everything back home and change it. Gonna be gooood.
Finally got steam.
Finally got Vampire the Masqerade.
A bit worried about the economy since well I may have 1 week without work but..well.. that means no pay either. So I might as well sit on my fat ass and play videogames and eat cereals to spend as little money as possible.
Planned a trip home as well. With a stop in London to say hello to my homegirl Gabbi and Erika, miss them so much so it's gonna be a blast. Last time I was in London was with Erika and obviously we're going back to KOKO club where we had a crazy lovely night.
Looks like I'm going to see the Black Keys with them as well, who I listened to on Spotify and they seem very good so no protests haha.
Mjaumjau miss them so much. Gonna be nice with a little visit to my family as well and the cats of course!
Also.. to exchange my entire wardrobe. Sick of the clothes I have so I might just bring everything back home and change it. Gonna be gooood.
Anyways, me and Eve cooked a typical Christmas dinner for our boyfriends and friend. 2/3 approved so I will say that it's was a success. Also hilarious with the amazment over jam/gravy/mash/meatballs - it is fucking good.
I have Evelina the first issue of Buffy in comic book form and I got a pair of earrings I've been drooling over and a pair of adorable earmuffs to keep my head warm :)
Anyways, yeah. Not much happening. Gonna play shajtloads of games.
Dear Florence Welsch,
I think I have to write about Florence.
Because she is basically the ONLY artist I care about seeing live. If I was only allowed to see one more band live for the rest of my life it would be Florence + The Machine. It's that simple.
Not only have I listened to her first album non-stop since it came out,
when I was in China and we ran about what 50 km a week? I always had my Mp3 with me and I accidentely erased all my music except Flo because she's Flo and I listened to her first album for 4 months. Non stop. Every day.
When I got home, got my computer, my spotify and all that I sat infront of the computer and just....put Flo on. She's thta good and I will never get tired of her. That's about how mad I am about it.
She gives me goosebumps. Her excellence brakes me to..don't know just makes me weak.
This is how I image it being high on the purest purest drug. I know I sound completely obscessed. Guess I am.
I need to get it out of my system though because the frustration about the whole concert in Dublin is making me mad.
I cross my fingers that she will get a second date in Dublin. She should. She really really should.
Or that when I have more money I can buy a ticket off Ebay where most tickets went anyway because people are dicks and can't get a decent job. Cunts.
I don't know how many times last year I put on "Rabbit heart" on the highest volume so my apartment was shaking and danced around for hours on repeat feeling as free as I could possibly feel inside an apartment.
I went to Propaganda at work some saturdays ago and they played 2 Flo songs during the night and during the first one I found a guy and sang the whole song with him and then we went on doing our buisness and 1-2 hours later when the second Flo song came on, we were beside eachother again singing the Flo song again. That was lovely. She's just that good. She brings le fans together haha.
How can you not get goose bumps, euphoria, chills and all that from her.
AEGHGHGJOLJBNHJU
Dear dark Dublin
I'm slowly getting more Irish. Like yesterday when I was like "Oh I haven't been drinking in ages"
"..It was Friday..4 days ago" so we went for a pint.
What's happening at the moment. Not sure, got 6 days at the Academy this week which is nice because I might actually...you know...NOT STARVE next week.
We got a new apartment which we will move into in 3 weeks. Lovely indeed.
It's much much bigger and closer to the city centre.
Downloading Propellerheads Reason because I'm listening to The Cures more industrial songs and got inspired.
Not that I haven't touched reason or my keyboard in like...4 years but whatevs.
From saturday to monday i Did nothing but sleep.
I literally just slept for three days. Not sure if I'm getting sick or not eating enough. So yesterday when working at the Ambassador was the first time I saw daylight in a while.
Today I'm back to no daylight. Slept until 17.30 but I'm working to 03.00 so... yeah.
AND IF ANYONE BACK HOME LOVES ME THEY CAN ALWAYS SEND ME SOME SWEDISH CHRISTMAS TREATS.
Knäck, kokostoppar, lussebullar, MOZARTSKULOR.
Just sayin'
Because I have to spend my christmas money on deposit for the room.
Santas playland
Le promotion video for work haha.
Dear darling Dublin
Wah, there are plenty of things going on now.
Like it completely slipped my mind that we need to find a new place in the city centre but we are looking at an apartment today and tomorow so it should be fine.
Saturday we started our new job with the Parade. TV followed us for like 4 hours and Photographers for a few hours as well. I haven't seen the news yet but I've heard that it was in the newspaper.
I like my new job, I will definately loose weight as well haha.
Then Saturday I went to the Academy and saw Sam Lloyd and the band The Blanks.
Basically Ted Buckland and the Worthless Peons from the TV-show Scrubs. And I got to hug everyone of them ^_^ and they were really kind and warm. Kept saying "Hi pretty/sweety/beautiful/Honey" and stuff like that so it was a nice experience and the show was fantastic. Kept laughing so much that my cheek hurt like hell.
For some terrible reason I completely forgot my real camera and had to deal with my cellphone. Sadface.
I'm definately going to take proper pictures from The Ambassador. I'll see if I can find the video from the parade as well. There should be plenty. I'm mentally preparing myself for a crazy 4 weeks! Basically slept nothing for 3 days and got to sleep for 13 today. Ahhhhhh the relief.
Dear dumb Dublin,
Arghhhhhh,
No?!
This week was gonna be hard enough without me having a cold/tonsillitis!
Tonight I'm gonna work 22.30-03.00
I'm getting up at 09.30 to walk around in a parade 11.00-13.00 and about 14.00 - don't know I'm gonna start my new job at the Ambassador. And then I work Sunday at the Academy, I'm gonna ask not to work at the Ambassador Sunday because I might actually die.
And I really can't not work because then I can't afford food or medicine for that matter.
Mlrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
And I wanted to party saturday because it's probably the last saturday I'm off in a very very long time. I'm gonna go down to the pharmacy and get what the Irish call Lemsip and hope for the best.
I'm also drinking ridiculous amount of ginger lemon tea and feeling sorry for myself.
Sigh.
And I just want a hug D: but who wants to hug someone with Tonsillitis.
Well this is what I'm gonna look like tomorow. I'll probably end up eating half of the candy myself.